Theatrical Muse: Obstacles
Jun. 30th, 2005 08:11 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
veronica_marsI was never supposed to be beloved by all of Neptune; the aptness with which I took to my outcast role made that abundantly clear to everybody. Freaks, geeks, and 09ers alike knew. Stay away from that Veronica Mars, she’s trouble. She’ll give you syphilis that no penicillin can cure.
It wasn’t always like this, of course. Back when Lilly was alive, I sat at their lunch table and ate their pizza and Chinese food and quesadillas. I was best friends with their crown princess and dating their prince, and it was nice to feel untouchable.
Well. In retrospect, anyway. It’s not like I’m harboring any particular longing for the past, because I certainly hope that I’ve grown as a person -- but the transition from 09er to that Veronica Mars, italics implied -- was swift and harsh. Lilly died and things changed.
I lost my best friend. My boyfriend wouldn’t speak to me. Her boyfriend wouldn’t speak to me. I was alone for the first time, and like I said -- I’ve gotten used to it. I’ve gotten good at it. But while some adjustments are easy, sometimes you’d just like a little warning before your entire world gets turned upside down.
I don’t miss the 09ers. I miss Lilly. I miss Duncan and Logan. I miss the fabulous foursome and the fun and the excitement that accompanied our every move. We’ve all changed, though, and things will never be the same.
I just wish the road were a little bit smoother, and really. Is that so very much to ask?
Of course it is. We’re in Neptune, after all, and people like me don’t catch those kinds of breaks.
It wasn’t always like this, of course. Back when Lilly was alive, I sat at their lunch table and ate their pizza and Chinese food and quesadillas. I was best friends with their crown princess and dating their prince, and it was nice to feel untouchable.
Well. In retrospect, anyway. It’s not like I’m harboring any particular longing for the past, because I certainly hope that I’ve grown as a person -- but the transition from 09er to that Veronica Mars, italics implied -- was swift and harsh. Lilly died and things changed.
I lost my best friend. My boyfriend wouldn’t speak to me. Her boyfriend wouldn’t speak to me. I was alone for the first time, and like I said -- I’ve gotten used to it. I’ve gotten good at it. But while some adjustments are easy, sometimes you’d just like a little warning before your entire world gets turned upside down.
I don’t miss the 09ers. I miss Lilly. I miss Duncan and Logan. I miss the fabulous foursome and the fun and the excitement that accompanied our every move. We’ve all changed, though, and things will never be the same.
I just wish the road were a little bit smoother, and really. Is that so very much to ask?
Of course it is. We’re in Neptune, after all, and people like me don’t catch those kinds of breaks.
